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Saturday, September 18, 2010

Missing you

My birthday has been painful ever since i Lost the love of my life on 17 sept 1995... it has been 15 years but the pain is still fresh... tears is flowing non stop especially when i write this blog.... i really miss him.... i was a bad daughter... always thinking about what i want without thinking about his feelings.... i hope he forgives me... Atta I love u and miss u terriblly everyday every moment is empty without you..No one can love me or care for me as you can.... I miss u i miss u i miss u... Al-fatihah for A.Kamaludeen the world's best Dad... in my eyes..... i would welcome death hoping to meet you in afterlife.... especially after my kids are grown up insyaAllah.... signing of with tears of great sadness.

Sunday, September 12, 2010

Syawal is here

Alhamdulillah Eid celebration has been great maybe some hiccups here and there to test my iman (I fail so badly... sorry Honey... I love you so much for putting up with my temper tantrums) after 28 days of fasting... yupp lost 2 precious day to morning sickness but Alhamdulillah morning sickness has passed during syawal... Allah has been graceful... hopefully my trip to langkawi will be one with joy... a lot of shopping and swimming, and eating...northern state food are so tummylicious... hehehehe so bias....Ok got to go and install latex...whylah USm got research methodology course disturbing me from focusing on my seriously abandon research...Selamat hari Raya everyone




p/s:- feeling closer to Lily even though I can't see her knowing she is in Malaysia make me happy... happy eid celebration in Malaysia lily!!